Test Anxiety
Just when I have myself convinced that everything’s cool, I finally admit to myself that I have text anxiety. Really. You know, I spent the whole week sweating my chemistry final on Friday (yesterday), and the anxiety built up so much that by the time I got to the darned exam yesterday my brain was just a big bowl of jelly. What the heck.
I know there are a lot of factors that play into it. For one, I know eyes are on me. Gotta perform. I am one of those students who usually stands out a bit in class, and gosh I’ve got a reputation to protect! And you know, I’ve had B’s on all of my gen. chem exams this semester. That’s what I freak out about! Not being able to break my streak of B’s on chemistry exams. Sheesh. Can you believe that when I get an exam back and it has a B score on it, I feel like a dumb-ass? General Chemistry!
oh, sweet copper cells
I have really got to learn how to take it easier on myself… really. The world is not coming to an end because of a B in general chemistry. I have got to remember that I can only get better at it. I mean, let’s rewind 1 year ago, I didn’t know a fraction of what I know now about chemistry. So, by the time I get into organics in the fall, I am confident that I will be stellar at it. Even the profs admit that the two semesters of gen chem are really difficult because there is so much subject material to cover and introduce.
Please remind me to take a deep breath and get my head back down on earth. I can’t go through the rest of school fearing that a B in general chemistry is going to “break it for me”. Cause all the while, I’m scoring over 100 on bio exams which is my major (bio/pre-med, to be specific). So, perhaps, (wishful thinking here), that when the day comes for me to apply for med school, the B in gen. chem will ummmmm, be okay?
I say fantastic work for the B, and no way that hurts you down the road with your after undergrad plans.
On a side note, the university that the Mrs. works at has an active accomodative services office for students who have difficulties taking traditional exams. Some of her students get too nervous in a room with others and their exam score is never a reflection of what they know.
Through accomodative services, certain students are permitted to take the exam alone with a proctor or have some other special help. Just a thought, if you think the nervousness will continue to bother you.